Transition

I came back home to spend the summer before my graduate program. There isn't much to do besides hanging out with old friends. My music production setup sits in a storage in Chicago. Research and game development also has been delayed since March; as my desktop is also in the storage, and I don't have a good working laptop right now. Well, I can still learn languages and write blog posts, I guess.

Why do I write blog posts?

To share new research ideas? Yes, but I find that cause overly practical. Besides, can we justify sharing all those wild imaginations and conjectures on the internet, which already suffers from a myriad of fake news?

To share my life? Sure, but why would other people find my life interesting? And even if they are interested, that is not a good sign. Good people are interested in their own lives rather than the others.

The reason I think is to not repeat the mistakes of the past. I don't think history repeats itself as is, but you can still often learn from past mistakes. That being said, I am very forgetful. I am leaving stuff behind when leaving from hotel, missing scholarship deadlines, and so on. It is quite stressful, but part of it is also how I was built.

Can I learn not to repeat these mistakes by writing these events down? I am not sure. But at least I can empirically learn about myself. It is just another sample point in the statistics of my behavior. Writing these events is important because this dataset is often the victim of our own revision of history, both in a positive and a negative way. Of course, writing it down does not capture the full context of these events, but they are better preserved this way than just keeping them somewhere deep inside your memory.